I sat in silence for a long while this afternoon, desperately thinking of what I could write to prove to others that God is real, and that He is there always for us; how could I prove the Existence of God to people?.
Then I suddenly stopped, and did what I knew I had to do much earlier, which was to quit thinking the way I normally do, in a humanly-friendly and suitable manner, trained as a philosopher, an unquenchable thinker, an avid debater hungry for knowledge, and I quickly realized, that this isn't what God wants, needs, or expects from me, this wouldn't be the right approach to talk about a Majestic Being. God's will, shall be fulfilled through the Holy Spirit, namely God speaking and working through us, as we make ourselves pliable, humble enough to deny our own way of thinking, even when it is solidified after years of earthly experience, and let Him do the talking that regards superior matters. My sudden realization of this didn't have to be something that visually sounds and looks fascinating, like a film, but it really was, and it's one of those things you just have to experience; it would be pointless to attempt explaining it in detail, since definitions, labels and explanations are burdens we are tormented with, especially in this era where scientific dogma prevails (yes, science that preaches to be perpetually against dogma, is still a dogmatic approach, as awkward as that may sound, such way of mind will always bear negative fruit as well as anything positive, because it negates the positive sides of tradition and stability); all it took was one split second, I looked out the window, and I asked God for help, with a bothered tone, (because I am a proud person and always found it hard to let anyone advise me or help me, even if it's God doing it for me), but at the same time deep down I actually rejoiced yet again at the amazing fact that He even considers me worthy to be a messenger of His words, because the truth is, he loves us all so much that He would let anyone be His messenger. There are endless stories in the Bible about this, that you'd never believe, and I think that is the exact motive why they're true. We're afraid of things that seem to good to be true, and in the human world and society, that is acceptable, it's a way to keep away from evilness and trouble, but in the presence of God, the norm doesn't apply, in fact we should smile and laugh, and be amazed at how extrardinary His ways can be, seeming so absurd to us.
I am just another person. There has been billions of people, millennia of history, philosophy, poetry, thinkers, ecclesiastical production, churches, sermons, you name it, and eternally, there has been, is, and always will be a Holy Bible within which all answers may be found by those whom seek with a humble heart, ready to receive the difficult but truthful answers we seek; but this is the whole point: all this material isn't enough for most people, here we still are, the majority of the world doesn't believe in God, and I believe the main reason for this, is that doing so would interfere with their unholy ways, it would involve changing their unholy lifestyle to aim for integrity, which is much harder than living a dissolute life. That is the truth, humanity always wants it easy, but they won't admit it. It's way too difficult to maintain a lifestyle led by a righteous and religious law, and devotion to God, gratitude instead of selfishness, giving instead of receiving all the time, sacrificing time, money, to help and care for others also. They will do anything to negate God's existence in order to protect their little secret, that they want everything to stay their way, easy, unholy, and selfish. Especially nowadays with such wide spread development of science, people expect proof, tangible proof of anything, and they can't find it with God, hence they worship science as if it was a god, instead of the real God, living therefore in constant hypocrisy and antinomy, given they make a god out of earthly matters, while preaching against anything godly at the same time. They do not realize that this kind of "proof", God, doesn't come from a science lab or a conference, or by a Pope or a priest, it only comes through a personal relationship with God. It is, and must be an individual choice, and journey. It is for you to experience, and to incite others to experience. It is not meant to be the revelation of some kind of methodology to write on a textbook, expecting to encounter God through quick and easy steps and actions, in a mechanic way. You can't explain it easily or give examples and expect them to work for everyone else.
One thing I learned from studying stories in the Bible, and from my own life's endeavours and observations, is that people arrogantly and selfishly expect to understand God, meet God, see God, hear God, within the same ambient, contexts and conditions within which they could live and experience anything else, any other type of experience, as if God was "just another thing" in life, and not something Superior to the norm. But think about it, wouldn't that be such a shallow god, that bends to our preferences? What Greatness and Majesty would our God have if He were to be slave to our timing and our necessities, when we continuously ignore Him for all the rest of our lives? In fact, most often, in films, books, and ofcourse in real life, God, is usually seeked when one hits "rock bottom", as they say, at the crossroad between life and death, in the most drastic and desperate conditions. And truthfully I say to you, in my human eyes that is such a ridiculous and pathetic behaviour that shows how childish, immature, and lost humans are. It's the behaviour of a weakling, an ungrateful and arrogant weakling, because that is a person that only cryes for help when they desperately need it, just like a baby weeping for every single thing that isn't good enough for them, and they ignore the blessings and the voice of God for all the rest of their lives, when they are comfortably busy fulfilling their ego, as if God was an information center or a police station or a hospital, if you get the rereferece about the function of these facilities. But behold, my mind will never match God's mind, as I am human, and sinful: even then, when those immature and ungrateful people are weeping and worthy of Nothing in my opinion, God is right there to help them, when you'd least expect it, and will not let someone's desperate cry for help go unheard, Given ofcourse it is a truthful and honest call to God.
In no way I dare to compare my present writing to the quality, complexity of great thinkers whom have studied and written extraordinary compositions for a whole lifetime about God, and about so called 'proof of His existence', in fact, what I am writing here is much less elaborate in a formal way that anything else I usually write. It is not meant to sound poetic, or to be perfectly balanced, because just as I realized the origin of these thoughts wasn't mine, but God's, in the same way I must strive to give up my usual needs to make everything balanced and well thought out and aesthetically good looking, to make it even clearer that this isn't about me and what I prefer to see, or even how I prefer other people to see me: this is solely a tribute to God, and yet from God also, for others. And for this same reason, I will not even spend time writing personal stories about all the times I felt God listened to me, blessed me and helped when I deserved absoutely Nothing, because not even that works, and it would not be in line with what I previously explained, namely that even tangible proof of God woudn't be enough for someone that doesn't Want to believe, because they prefer sin to holiness, flesh to spirit, deceit rather than the shiny dazzling truth. I simply wish to throw out there a few words, in honour to God, in a different manner, the manner I find most sincere and true to me, and above all, to Him, the Creator. Hence my objective here isn't to directly prove anything through what humans would consider as "solid and incontrovertible evidence", but rather to incite anyone that may read this wall of text, to give God a chance to speak to You, and to experience His Greatness. But beware and remember, in order to do so, one must approach God with an honest heart, otherwise it will never happen.
Back to my previous words about a Godly encounter having to be suitable to God, with a very plain example, what people normally expect to happen would be like showing up at a wedding dressed in rags, dirty, not presentable, yet expecting to be respected by everyone in the same way, when you haven't done any effort to gain that respect.
God is our Creator, Not our servant. So when a person, a sinner, like we all are, attempts to approach God all of the sudden, for once in their life, and then cowardly preaches to the world something on the lines of: "I prayed to God once, when I lost my job... or when my wife left me... or when I got run over by a truck, and He was never there for me", people Must understand that God isn't there at our time, whenever we need Him to fix something for us, that isn't how it works. In my human perspective, not godly, this example is what most sickens me and brings wrath to me, because even if I were not a believer, I would still be just as angry about this tipical human behaviour, because it seems so blatantly disgusting, selfish and arrogant, hence I remain so shocked at how it is so popular and at how selfish people must be to believe this kind of attitude to be proper and fair and even slightly worthy of God's presence. It is simply an example of the catasthropic anthropocentric condition that human kind has achieved in this era.
Other tipical examples of the advent of this behaviour occur when sickenss, evilness of people, and natural calamities strike us. These are generally the most common events you will find the most people complaining about. What is unbelievable to me here, isn't God (pun intended), but the attitude of the people. We are human bodies, we are sinners, we are corruptible, spiritually and physically. God never wrote or said that this Earth would be paradise, or that this life would be easy, painless or danger free. We had a go at that in Eden, but unsurprisingly "we" messed that up, so now we must deal with this world, and there are ways to make this Earth more heavenly, but it certainly won't happen in a world dominated by "ethics" that only rely on utility, sexual abomination, corrupt ideals of "freedom", and extreme aspiration to individual success and accumulation of private goods. It should be so easy to see how these pillars could never sustain a holy temple, since they all involve suffering of others for pleasure of few.
God works in ways we can't always comprehend, and ironically, speaking of divine ways, that is "natural", otherwise why would there be one God, if we were all capable to think in the same way as the One and only Creator.
Moving on, natural calamities kill thousands, millions of people around the globe. I find it pathetically interesting how most people do not believe in God, or any god, and never waste a second of their whole live dedicated to something spritually proficuous in any way, seeking God's word, but as soon as a natural calamity comes, then everyone will immediately be asking: "How could a Good God let this happen?". Now, what should really be asked, is why did you let your whole lives go by in such misery and unholiness, and you cry for God only when you see death's arrival. God forgives. I don't, I am here to make you think in the way humans will understand, so it won't be sweet and easy, as weaklings like it, it will be harsh and true. More over, it is so ridiculous how men of science, atheists, or anyone that relies on scientific 'facts', dares to even mention God when these events happen, when even them, are the same people that everyday boast proudly about how they can predict, and "explain" these events. But what are they actually explaining? Telling me how fast a rock will fall on a mud slide or how high a tsunami wave will be only describes a motion, it doesn't tell me the actual root cause of why there is even is a rock or an ocean. Only a god, our God, can tell you that. Science lives under the comfortable Illusion of an etiological knowledge (knowledge of root causes of all things), when in truth, all it does is accumulate technical data by analysing things that everyone can comprehend, in detailed terms that not everyone can comprehend anymore without a text book; as a simple example: everyone can shake a tree and take the apple, and survive, but the scientist can tell you in technical made up terms, how fast the apple will fall, but do those numbers really matter deep down for life? Normal time and experience and observation can let a man with no "scientific data" be able to farm even without detailed knowledge of planet coordinates and perfect season timing and detailed mineral soil condition and composition and accurate morphological information of the surrounding territory. Therefore, in truth, what scientific data basically only serves for, is to find the right numbers to be able to recreate an event which naturally occurs in a variable way, but in a predicatable invariable way, namely with the highest possible exploitation and production, also known as, "profit" for human beings, and there comes the selfishness again, masked as "science", the herald of "progress"...
But religion, life, ethics, love, forgiveness, righteousness, these are things that can't be taught by a book or a lab, or a microscope. If sex, global warming, oil extraction and i-phones are parts and products of nature or science, that people daily exalt and are proud to know about and deal with, then to be truly honest and humble about their science-friendly beliefs, if anything they should respect and appreciate nature just as much as they do when it brings petrol for their cars, when it comes crushing through your house and drowns your family, or shakes buildings to pieces or extinguishes millions of people through an invisible virus. You either love it all, or you don't love it at all, cherry picking is a great indicator of hypocrisy. If people of science were true to themselves, they should have the courage to have purity in their intellectualism, by loving nature all the way, even when its glorious power kills people that for the record maybe built their town in the wrong area and chopped down too many trees and destroyed the roots that kept everything stable or polluted the sea too much or killed too many animals, and not only when it creates condoms, space ships and soft drinks for human pleasure and their immorality.
So no, it is Not "God's fault", people should be ashamed of saying that, it's your own faulty, and delusional omnipotent's science fault. God didn't tell us to build cars so we could go and kill each other on the roads on a saturday night. God didn't tell us to devastate forests so we could be killed by a mud slide, God didn't tell you to go skiing so an avalanche could kill you, God didn't tell us to feed animals their own shit so we could get diseases, God didn't tell us to overpopulate cities and spread diseases and have famines, God didn't tell us to smoke cigarettes and breathe car exhausts and die of cancer, God didn't tell us any of this, and endless other things we complain about. So people should think again about examining themselves and who they should really blame about their sorrow.
And moreover, how to deal with great evil and sickness. These two are the hardest to face I personally believe. When a loved one is taken away by sickness, or by the great evil and injustice of an assassin or a terrible accident, people suddenly cry to God, "God", that word and concept they made fun of up until the day before, and they ask: "Why... Why... This isn't fair, Why did this happen to me, and why is God so evil to let it happen to me". And the hardest part: when such things happen to firmly faithful believers. In this case, one must have astounding integrity and great self control and faith in God, to believe that everything we have, is first of all a blessing and a gift from God, that He provideth, and that at any time, we may also lose it just as we received it, and that we should strive to be grateful and joyful for what we had, and for what God will Provide us with next, if we stay faithful and don't give up.
Myself, I always think, if I died tonight, just after writing this, I feel I could not possibly be able to conceive having to never see my Beloved woman ever again, it would be impossible to explain and to bear the pain of leaving Her. And yet, I am sure that I would look at Her one last time, smile before I took my last breath, thinking at how many blessed days the Lord gave me with Her, and be thankful in prayer.
To conclude, it's that 'me', it's always about that 'me' isn't it? When was the last time that 'me' was ever humble enough, ever considerate enough to think of 'Him' before taking care of their personal 'me' first, expecting Him to always provide never the less, at our command? Isn't the paradox so evident... us commanding the Creator...
God was there everyday for you, when you didn't ask and didn't care, ready to bless. But you never thanked, never cared. But please, bear with me once again I have to humble myself and try to deny my own selfishness, that fails to depart my own guilt from the anger toward others whom I find so guilty, departing me from what I am trying to say and do here, which is to Praise God's Existence; I am not blind to my own failures and sin, I am conscious of how much I need to grow, and of how strange it is for me myself to exalt God and His ways, and still be led by hate towards others, but my only weapon here is honesty and Truth, which are Gifts that God gave me and for which I am most grateful for; Because once again, given how I have described the last things so far, with those brutal rethorical questions attempting to strike people's guilt and conscience, there again comes the Greatness of God: God is beyond these rethorical questions. The answers to mine meant to blatantly demonstrate, that in my opinion you and I don't deserve God at all, and if this even was about action and reaction, and salvation through 'good actions', (catholicism) we could never make up for the countless sins we did in our lives, because we are naturally made that way, hence we can only be saved by an Almighty form of Grace. Therefore in my human and passionate eyes, you would not "deserve" to find Him, but here's the twist: God will still be there for you, and we can't deserve it, we can only accept it as a gift, because He represents Grace, unconditional Love, concepts which I firmly believe are impossible to achieve in their purest form as human beings, and hence require a Godly essence to incorporate them.
Even when I may have found you so pathetic and unworthy to my eyes, it's because I am human, but He is God, and I am unworthy to His eyes just as much as any other is. I can't comprehend how that could be right, because "Righteousness", "Fairness", "Justice", all come from Him, these values "Are Him", so how could an inferior being be able interpret such sacred ideals in the correct way? Well, this is why God is there to help us, guide us, and show us those things which we believe are Impossible.
Give before you expect to receive, and most importantly, give without expecting to receive, and you will surely receive more, Spiritually. Spiritual gifts are the most valuable, because they are incorruptible. For as long as you are leaning on and hoping for physical retribution, which is corruptible, you will not receive or be shaped for any spiritual ones.
God is great, God is always with us, but God above all, what I wish to say the most to all the people that despise God, is that He deserves Reverence and Respect before you may come to His presence, and I find it very sad that the world I live in is so decadent that it requires such endeavour to explain something which I find so obvious. And behold, this has nothing to do with having an interceder, a priest. All you need is to find purity in the soul, and then God will mold you even more to resemble his Ways.
So the conclusion will be a phrase that I would honestly believe even if I did not believe in God, just to express how natural it seems to me to believe in the super-natural that God represents, and yes, I know that is paradoxical, but God is the one case where a paradox becomes the regular way and only way to explain something, because how else could you explain a "Him" whom is above the rules of "explanation" by default, (because He incarnates the superior explanation), if not through metaphores, attempts? I believe that the greatest things are never easy, and are meant to be hard. Just as it is with monetary success, success in sports, acting, writing, anything in our lives, it is the ones that work the hardest that receive a reward and gain their objective. So why in the world should faith in God be easier? If anything, it should be the hardest thing in life, and here I find my proof of His existence, because indeed, it is the hardest thing to Believe, and yet it is the most rewarding. But I can't tell you exactlly why, because the only way for you to believe Him, is to deny yourself, set aside your selfishness and anthropocentrism, and realize that to experienced anything godly, you must present yourself in a more suitable manner, that aspires to wholeness, purity and godliness, take your cross, follow Jesus and God, and experience Him and His holy blessings, ways, and teachings, with humbleness and pure joy. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it.
- Kawtu, No One -
